Lent much?

What I want to give up for lent:

• Daily shots to the backside
• Bruising
• Anxiety
• Being on the edge of overwhelm

What I actually gave up for lent?

Facebook.  

Congrats to all the new mommies that keep popping up in my feed.  

Already weary

After giving myself my ganirelix shot this morning I found my positive attitude to be weaning.   This was after I had bloodwork.

It was the moment of thinking "this one hurts... I don't want to keep injecting drugs into my body... my ovaries are sore...I hate having someone else open my classroom...etc..."  I was glad that I was checking out before the receptionist had arrived.  I could feel my smile fading and the injection had given me a reminder to not wear a belt after today. 

I have forgotten that ivf is a marathon not a race.  Infertility is not for the weak. 

Must be 845

How I mix cocktails now.  The new happy hour at the Wilson house.

return of the tick

Day one of injections is over and done.  Round 2 is about to begin.

As of this week I have reverted to my old nervous tick of wringing my hands.  When I catch myself, I try to put lotion in my hands to at least give the habit some purpose.

When I come through this I might not just have a baby, I could also have really soft hands. Bonus.

Injections to begin...

I've had all initial blood work done.  I'm taking a handful of vitamins daily.  I've taken my last birth control pill.   All this signifies the beginning of injections.   My life revolving around needles.

Feb 9 is egg retrieval day.   Feb 13 is when implementation happens. Then 48 hours of bed rest.   

I then wait until February 27 to see if my $15,000 lottery ticket was a winner.   

On a side note.  I asked a coworker how they kept their sanity.  Her response?  "I didn't.  I was a basket case."   Check.